Monday 12th February 2018
“Never sleep again”

For the last several months I’ve been trying to do everything… & I mean everything… that is everything but sleep. It’s only when you don’t sleep that your brain goes into a weird panic mode, I find that when I don’t sleep I become more anxious, paranoid & have occasional panic attacks and even when I’m fully aware of what I’m doing to myself, I stop & think about it, worry a little & then carry on… this is what has been happening for a few months as I spend my nights editing ‘Invasion of the Not Quite Dead’, with my days spent either being a stay at home dad, helping my wife with her baby/toddler messy play business, or out on the road doing freelance video work, or freelance editing, it means I’ve only had a small window to edit my film, usually between 11pm-3am, then up between 6-7am, with most nights interrupted due to one of my lil ones being poorly, so if I’m lucky I’ll get 3-4 hours sleep, but the average will be closer to 2, after a while you just burn out, this is where I am now, burning out… & why? because I’m trying my best to do everything… but it’s worse than that, I’m also a dreamer, someone who has such a stubborn, obsessive streak, for perfection, that I at times put my health knowingly at risk, for my art, for something that is way bigger than me, but I also know I can’t go on like this for much longer.

Over the next few weeks I’m going to put a plan into action that will give me the time back I need so I can get
‘INVASION OF THE NOT QUITE DEAD’ finished without there being such a risk to my mental & physical health…

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